Current Situation#
The current work and life have a somewhat petty-bourgeois feeling. Every day, the thought of what to eat for lunch has evolved into how to earn more money each day.
The pace of life is much more relaxed than before, and I have time every day to write some code and think of some ideas, finally producing something of my own.
However, last night at eleven o'clock, I suddenly had a premonition that my time was running out, which scared me enough to jump out of bed immediately. For a moment, I felt decades older and thought that nothing mattered anymore. After hesitating for a long time, I turned on the air conditioning and went back to bed to sleep.
Future Plans#
- Build an anime website like dilidili.
- Develop some bots using GPT to earn a little pocket money.
- Create a note-taking software similar to Gridea+IPFS.
Some Random Thoughts#
We often lack the ability to reflect on our personality issues and rarely think proactively. The INFP personality can be the most worthy of reflection because they are extremely obsessive about certain aspects while also being inclined to introspection. Some people think repeatedly and excessively repent every day, leading themselves into difficulties. In fact, regretting things that have already happened is meaningless, and worrying too much about what might happen in the future is also pointless. We should calm down.
Sometimes, I really miss the other person and reminisce about the days when they were around. Human emotions are like this; often, we only remember the other person after they leave. It's like when we were kids buying toys, holding one in hand while looking at others on the shelf. Luo Xiang once said, "Our love may just be a projection of a fervent narcissism." I think this statement makes a lot of sense.
As the saying goes, "To get ashore, one must first cut off their romantic interests." Although I am not that kind of person, I think there's nothing wrong with it; adults have the right to make their own choices. Moreover, what is cut off may not necessarily be a romantic interest; it could just be a passerby.
Some people, before reaching their heart's goal, choose to say goodbye to their romantic interests for civil service exams or graduate studies. They then attribute the end of a relationship to not loving enough. I really don't know what to do. But doing my own thing, doing it well, and coming back happy is just a normal thing.
I don't understand why there are so many thoughts that can go unexpressed, yet I rely entirely on my own wild imaginations.